It’s been five long weeks of summer and I still have a week and a half to go. It’s not that spending every waking minute with my two kids is difficult, (it’s a different story when they argue.) but i miss my routine. Day to day life is knocked on its head and spilt out on the floor like a vast expanse of nothingness.
I spent the summer fulfilling none writing goals as my creativity has crumbled under the change in pace. I suffered a total melt down and my writer’s guilt shot through the roof. I’ve longed to write, I’ve longed for the peace and quiet so I could write. But all I got in return was guilt over being a terrible parent. Was I letting my kids down by not giving them a fantastic holiday?
This year’s weather has been awful, so beach days have been minimal. Our big family holiday is looming, so I’m on a budget too. That means no theme parks or adventure days unless they involve a picnic and nature.
I own two other businesses that I run from home. For most weeks of the year I’m extremely grateful for my circumstances. I get to be at home if the kids are sick or on holiday. Just not in the summer. Six and a half weeks is a long time. Think of all the editing I could have achieved.
It’s not all bad, lazy days by the sea has its perks and I’ve read some great novels. Renovations on our house have resumed (come on bathroom) and I’m (smugly) ready for this year’s external audit at my fabrication business.
Now that the countdown to school has begun I’m keen to start writing again. So this week I’ve escaped to my bedroom with a hot cup of tea and my laptop. The strangest thing happened, my kids left me alone. They’ve respected my privacy and have taken my writing seriously. Perhaps because for the first time, so have I.
This is real for me now. This is my future, my third business. The time for feeling selfish about writing has passed and I’ve emerged stronger and more determined than ever before.
How do you juggle family and working commitments? Is the summer a struggle for you too or have you developed a system that benefits everyone? Thanks for reading and sharing my world.