It’s not an easy task, even when that person causes unimaginable pain, deep wounds that lay at our core. Breaking ties, severing bonds and inflicting heartache.
What if that goodbye is your chance to finally breathe? To resurface from a lifetime of cruelty and repression. That even though it’s what’s right for you, it will crush the others who surround the two of you.
Families break, friendships suffer, children cry. Guilt can become a burden that is too hard to shake. Memories of love and loss collide within my mind. They crash like waves on cliffs, shattering rocks. Rocks that were once my building blocks. Blocks that caged me, trapping me inside fear and rejection.
I’ve taken those foundations – chipped, chiselled and clawed through. Bare-handed, bloody and raw. I’m not a child anymore. I see wrong from right, I fight against it day and night.
I walk away, head high, from you. The man, who should have protected and sheltered me from harm. I wear your healed bruises as badges of strength. I’ll face this life alone, because sometimes it’s safer, and that’s such a crime.
Though it’s sad, it’s the right time to say – goodbye dad.
© Author Lorraine Ambers and http://www.lorraineambers.com, 2016.
Lorraine Ambers 
This is beautiful.
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Thank you
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Lovely post, Lorraine. Sad, poignant, heartfelt. Sometimes self-preservation needs to be a priority.x
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Well said Judith. 😌
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Reminds of the day I had to move back, leaving all my friends…. I may never see them again…. It is not the same as saying bye to your dad, but in some ways it is. You captured the sorrow and feelings perfectly.
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Saying goodbye to anyone is painful. The loss of friendship is horrendous, sorry for your loss.
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Thank you so much. It means a lot.
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Beautifully written my friend. Sometimes it is what is needed, what is right, for us and even others. Your strength is poignant.
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Thank you Ari.
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Beautifully written. I hope you found a cathartic release in this.
More than that, I you find a way forward. You are strong. You are brave. And sometimes, the one you must protect the most is you.
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Thanks Elizabeth, you’re right, sometimes we must protect ourselves.
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